This might turn into a ramble so apologies and please bear with me. There is something exciting I want to share coming towards the end of the post so if you want to skip ahead, please do…
If you’ve decided to stay with me and get the exciting stuff the long way round, then here we go. And I’ll start with trying to explain where my head has been of late. Not an easy thing to do! But I’ve been struggling again lately. My tendency towards overthinking has been intensifying with age, and my brain has been in overdrive for the past few weeks now (I blame hormones, or lack thereof – sorry for too much information). Coupled with overthinking, there’s also been that little voice that constantly says ‘you’re not good enough’. I think wanting to have an academic career was perhaps one of the worst things for someone who immediately sees their own shortcomings and inadequacies as the reason for anything negative that happens, and can’t get past listing all the ways that they have failed. In academia, the peer review culture, the competitiveness, and the drive to constantly be better and innovative and outstanding far too easily create space for self-doubt, self-criticism, and feelings of inadequacy and failure – at least for me, anyway. And then there’s also my experience of (let’s call it what it is) losing my career through a department closure and (let me own it, even though it’s hard) my decision to take a voluntary (even if it didn’t feel very voluntary) leaving package, and not being able to find another academic job since August 2020. Yes, I know that there was a lot going on in the world in 2020, that universities have changed tremendously in the last 6 years, that it’s not me it’s the system… but that doesn’t stop my overthinking and my tendency to focus on what I could and should have done differently, how I should have somehow been better, and how ultimately it’s my fault that I haven’t been able to get another position as a lecturer because I just wasn’t good enough.
There have over the past few weeks also been instances where I have immediately compared myself to someone else and seen all the things that they are and I am not, and all the career opportunities that they have and I don’t. I don’t think what I experienced was jealousy (I mean, just to overthink that, perhaps there was some envy in the mix…): rather, I’m coming to identify these feelings as part of the grief I have about losing my professional identity. Grief that I still have and often feel very silly about (even though feelings are feelings and you’re entitled to feel them). For instance, I attended a wonderful inauguaral lecture of a colleague who has just achieved promotion to full professor. I was so happy for them and it was lovely to hear about all the truly exceptional things they have achieved. I then spent the journey home crying about how that was something I wanted to do some day myself and won’t have chance to. Another example: I saw another colleague had been invited to attend a summer school in Italy and teach postgraduate students on a topic of Italian media studies. I was happy for them and the recognition for their work. And upset that this was yet another thing that I would never get to experience myself (I started telling myself it was because the organiser doesn’t like me and doesn’t like my work… ah yes, hello overthinking my old friend). At the conference I attended at the start of May, I had a massive emotional wobble about not fitting in, about not working on something ‘worthy’ and ‘profound’. On not being intellectual enough… And then I got the (now customary) ‘thanks but no thanks’ email for a media and communications lectureship that I applied for, which colleagues (and Copilot!) thought was really strong. Another ‘not good enough’ sign in my head.
ENOUGH!
That’s the point I’ve finally got to. It’s happened this week whilst on holiday. I started the week with another wobble and lots of overthinking (which usually starts in the evening and gets worse at 4 in the morning) and my husband, very wisely, said: you’re going to have to accept that that is how you feel. And it’s ok to feel like that. Then you decide what you want to do once you’ve felt your feelings. So here I am, having felt my feelings, making a decision about what I want to do. And, perhaps unsurprisingly, the decision revolves around Canzonissima, that wonderfully joyous Italian television programme to which I keep returning, which I spent time with in the TV archives in Rome in 2021 whilst at the BSR and which I decided then required a book to be written about it.
Well, it turns out, that book bas been written – and no, not by me. It’s just been published this year (end of March) and I found out about it whilst at a conference at the start of May. It’s called ‘Musica, milioni e follie: Canzonissima, lo show che incollava l’Italia’ and I got an electronic copy via Amazon (other stores are available!) – https://amzn.eu/d/07TO6Zw7. I started reading the book on the plane on the journey out for my holiday and finished it in two days! And I have mixed feelings. Initially, I really enjoyed all the Canzonissima trivia that the book recounts. I was finding out new things about the show and having affirmed my initial reactions and interpretations of the series. Then, I felt frustrated. This was the book I wanted to write. I had even planned the running order of the chapters whilst in Rome in 2024 and had ideas for a chapter on each iteration of the series across the almost 20 years it was on Italian television.
But here’s where sleepless nights full of overthinking can sometimes prove useful. I spent a rather productive hour between 3:45 and 4:45am the other morning channeling my overactive brain into thinking about the book I’d been reading and forcing myself to identify all the reactions I had had. And I finally articulated fully the sense of disappointment I had in the book, in that it left me wanting more. The information about the winning songs, the format of the voting, the choice of presenters, and the themes of the songs was all interesting but I had come away feeling like this was Canzonissima trivia. I wanted more. The historical context provided by the book was there but I wanted it directly linked to the presentation and analysis of the different series. I wanted to know why certain elements of the series were culturally, socially, and politically significant for Italy in that moment. I wanted the ‘so what?’ question answering in much more detail and depth. And that, my 4:15am brain said, is my opportunity!
So here’s the exciting part (in case you were scrolling down to find it!): here’s the plan for
Canzonissima. A Cultural History of Popular Music and Italian Television 1956-1974
| Introduction | Because every book needs a good introduction |
| Chapter 1 – Canzonissima in overview | An overview of Canzonissima as a series and how it evolves from the 1950s through the 1960s to the 1970s and situate this overview against the socio-political-cultural landscapes of Italy, Italian television, and Italian popular music. |
| Chapter 2 – Canzonissima and the lottery | Explore Canzonissima’s link to lottery and how this reveals the close relationship between Italian television and the State, as well as the cultural changes taking place in Italy in the mid-1950s that a shift to consumerism and aspirations for wealth. |
| Chapter 3 – Canzonissima as varieta’ | Analyse Canzonissima as a television format and how it aligns with the expectations of a variety series in Italy in the period (focusing on mise-en-scene, dancing, singing, comedy), then trace how the series develops and evolves between 1956 and 1974. |
| Chapter 4 – The labour of Canzonissima | (If this is even possible) analyse the unseen labour that went into creating and producing the series, focusing on budgets, rehearsal hours, sets, costumes, writers and directors to write a behind-the-scenes history of Canzonissima. |
| Chapter 5 – Role of the audience and presence of ordinary Italians on Canzonissima | Interrogate the role and presence of ordinary Italians on Canzonissima as audience, jury members, and lottery winners across the 1950s, 1960s, and 1970s, situating this analysis against the broader trends in Italian television at the time. |
| Chapter 6 – The reception of Canzonissima | Analyse how Canzonissima is contemporaneously received in the press and by the general viewing public between 1956 and 1974, focusing also on the press coverage and how this builds the series’ popularity and on how the audience reception compares and contrasts to that of the critics. |
| Chapter 7 – Canzonissima and censorship | Explore the impact on Canzonissima of another trend of Italian television at the time: censorship and strict expectations about what can and cannot be shown on Italian television screens in this period, focusing in particular on 1959, 1962, 1970, and 1971. |
| Chapter 8 – Canzonissima as star vehicle | Analyse the impact of Canzonissima on the fabrication and dissemination of the female presenters’ star status, highlighting Delia Scala, Sandra Mondaini, Mina, the Kessler twins, and Raffaella Carra’ in particular and in contrast to their male counterparts on the show. |
| Chapter 9 – Canzonissima as popular music programming | Situate Canzonissima as part of the calendar of popular music television programmes in Italy in this period (highlighting the similarities and differences with the coverage of the Sanremo Festival and Disco d’estate), analysing the broader trends of how popular music was televised in Italy in this period. |
| Chapter 10 – Canzonissima as (pop)star maker | Focus on specific popstars and analyse how Canzonissima shaped their popularity and reception with Italian audiences (Nilla Pizzi, Claudio Villa, Gianni Morandi, Massimo Ranieri). |
| Conclusion | Because every good book needs a conclusion and this is where I get to really, explicitly explain the ‘so what’ of Canzonissima. I also get to acknowledge the afterlives of Canzonissima here, and talk a little about the 2026 iteration of the show and how that was received by contemporary audiences and critics – all of which I hope will show just how culturally significant Canzonissima was and is in Italy. |

As is my want, I have questions about the structure of the book and the order of the chapters: is this the right order? Am I focusing on the right things? What have I missed? I also have questions about the time period but I think I want to start in 1956, to also take into consideration the precursors to Canzonissima that appeared in 1956 and 1957, before the first iteration of the show with the title Canzonissima in 1958. The periodisation could end in 1975, as it was in that January that the final episode of the ‘orignal’ run of Canzonissima aired. But I think I prefer to go with 1956-1974, as a reference to the years when each series started – plus, two even numbers just sounds better in my head!
So, as always, there are some practicalities that I need to think about: finding a publisher, writing a book proposal, doing the research into aspects I haven’t already worked on (behind the scenes, audience reception, history of the lottery in Italy!), writing the book… all the while finishing the book on Italian variety television stars, writing two other chapters I’ve promised to produce on Mina and Marcello Mastroianni, creating and producing series 2 of the ‘TV Italian Style’ podcast’ – and doing my job!
But here’s to forging ahead regardless!




